Hey! My name is Ebony, I am 16 years old and gay, and I live in South
West Australia. I have been struggling with mental instability for
quite a few years now. I don’t have a proper diagnosis, as I don’t
think I would benefit from knowing what I have, and my clinician
agrees. I am just going through a fucked up time in my life. I have a
very severe eating disorder in which I can only eat hot chips. I
occasionally eat Popcorn Chicken from KFC, Colby Cheese (has to be a
certain brand) and Vanilla Yoghurt. The hot chips can not be the ones
you shove in the oven.. I once tried a Burrito and I couldn’t eat it
because all the different textures and flavours made me feel sick.
Same thing happened when I tried a cheeseburger. I can’t handle
biting into something soft and crunchy at the same time, I literally
will start having a panic attack.. I have tried all sorts of food but
I could never eat more than a bite. I have been an inpatient once at
the Bentley Adolescent Unit. I have also been in and out of my local
hospital over the past 2 years. I would really love the doctors I see
to take me seriously on the eating thing, because I am so fucking sick
of eating chips. I have eaten them most days, for as long as I can
remember because my Mum could never get me to keep my food down. This
has actually destroyed my life. I get a lot of shit from doctors and
nurses about how I eat, and they just take it as I am being fussy, but
I would do anything to eat like a normal person. It feels like it is
draining my energy. I am currently on Seroquel (Quetiapine) for my
Anxiety and depression. I have been on Fluoxetine, Sertraline,
Mirtazapine, Ritalin, Dexamphetamine, and Temazepam in the past. I
have an amazing family. I have a cat, a dog, 2 birds, a guinea pig and
a fish. I dropped out of school last year and am studying instead. I
just wanted to say, to all my followers, thank you so much for your
support. It really does mean a lot to me ♥
