A Morning Grouch

I feel the cool breeze on my skin and the sunlight on my brow and I am elevated. Rejuvenated. I am Light.  But I was not meant to be this way. I was designed to be heavy. Dark. I was made to me...

https://amorninggrouch.com/2021/08/07/i-am-light/

My girls have not yet experienced A Loss. One of the big, impacting ones. Even I – who have experienced significant losses – am still privileged to have My Biggest Losses be a future event. T...

https://amorninggrouch.com/2021/04/19/showing-up-a-lesson/

I am living the happiest and most fulfilling life. I feel like the luckiest lady in the world. I also have major depressive disorder and that juxtaposition can be hard for some people to understa...

https://amorninggrouch.com/2021/01/30/a-dip/

I’m a high school teacher and a parent of elementary-aged children. All of us have been participating in school 100% online since March. Every day is an adventure. But some adventures are more ...

https://amorninggrouch.com/2021/01/20/get-a-glimpse-online-learning-todays-version/

We’re on week three of online learning. Me, as a high school teacher, and my children, as 1st and 3rd grade students. Everything is crazy and takes longer than usual as all three of us are util...

https://amorninggrouch.com/2020/09/09/this-is-what-online-learning-actually-looks-like/

She was a collector. A saver. A pack rat. She saved the smell of bubble gum breath and cinnamon-scented hair, of coconut detangler and Vicks Vaporub. She stockpiled the feel of soft, tiny toes pr...

https://amorninggrouch.com/2020/08/22/she-was-a-hoarder/

Today I walked around my neighborhood – not the entire thing, but a circular loop around two blocks of houses. I knew it was a longer stretch than I can go without being kept up later tonight f...

https://amorninggrouch.com/2020/04/04/a-painful-walk/

This fucking hip. Four years ago I had hip surgery for a torn labrum, and while that issue was corrected, I’ve been pretty much in a post-surgical nightmare ever since. A new problem immediatel...

https://amorninggrouch.com/2020/03/11/comfortably-numb/

A few days ago, my daughter asked if she could go with me to my doctor appointment. Even though I had fantasized about a silent ride, maybe with a stop on the way to pick up a coffee, I agreed th...

https://amorninggrouch.com/2019/04/13/heres-what-you-need-to-know-about-digging-yourself-out-of-a-depressive-rut/

I’ve been picturing the I finished book since I started this blog – using it as a mental image to keep myself going during the book writing process. The time has come and gone. The book is do...

https://amorninggrouch.com/2019/01/20/yiayia-and-papou-the-book-is-here-an-excerpt-and-a-quiz-to-find-out-if-you-need-to-read-it/