“The sun is shining, the sky is deep blue, there’s a lovely breeze
and I’m longing - so longing - for everything: conversations,
freedom, friends, being alone. I long…to cry! I feel as if I am on
the verge of exploding. I know crying will help but I can’t cry.
I’m restless. I go from one room to another, breath through the
crack in the window frame, I feel my heart beating, as if it is
saying, "Fulfill my longings at last”. I believe that it is spring
within me. I feel that spring is awakening, I can feel it in my entire
body and soul. It is an effort to behave normally, I feel utterly
confused, don’t know what to read, what to write, what to do. I only
know that I’m longing…“
